There’s an analogy I like to use- that as we go about life, we collect noise. Buzzing, static-like energy present in everything we do, sticking to us with every action and inaction, filling us up to the brim until at the end of the day, you … Continue reading Musical snippets
Documenting the prose that make up the people around me, one friend at a time ❤️
More beautiful prose, as promised. I’m usually so critical of myself that I never let my poems see the light of day (or the internet) but well, I’ve acquired some sort of bravery lately. The response I’ve been getting is definitely encouraging. A lot of … Continue reading An Anthology of People (2)
There are times when you realise that the written word is a much more powerful tool than it seems. I’ve always thought of it as a friend, who is able to speak for me when I can’t. It’s funny how fingers know what to write … Continue reading Beautiful words for beautiful friends (1)
Quick fan poetry for FFXV’s tragic heroes, Noctis and Nyx Also, for Daily Prompts: Rhyme You and I are of the night Born of darkness, to darkness And with our deaths beget the light You and I have lost our homes lost our families, and our … Continue reading The Nights
Airports have always been magical places. Growing up, it means the start of an adventure somewhere far away. No worries cloud your mind as you run beside the travelator, small hands holding onto your mother’s soft ones as you try to keep up with … Continue reading I leave you in His care
The night before 2017
I sat with myself
and I listened to the whispers of the world.
‘You are tall’ said the sky.
‘And you are strong’ said the Earth.
As I stood in Eiffel’s shadow,
my legs shivering in the cold.
‘You are significant’ said the mountains.
‘You are embraced’ said the seas.
As water slips through my cupped hands,
my lungs on fire.
‘I am enough’ I said
But I am not.
I am not.
There is nothing to see
There is nothing to fight
But it is there
It comes in gasps
It comes as thunder
In your chest
Telling you to
do I run from death?
It comes invisible
How do I fight an enemy I do not know?
They say sleep is a form of death
A sweet, short version
of what we must all
I know what you are
Insecurity. Fear. Longing. Envy.
Sadness. Pain. Contempt.
Disguised as a thousand shades of emotions.
The calls that never come
The hollow cheerfulness
The absence that is not felt
That one small person in the vastness of a sleepless city
I know what you are
So I’ll keep you in a box.
I am tired of screaming without words
are beyond comprehension
Photo Challenge – Of Creating and Creation – Relax
Making crafts has always been my hobby. I’ve made all sorts of stuff ever since I was small, from crude cat-shaped piggybanks to hand-bound notebooks. I can’t pinpoint it exactly but perhaps it’s the satisfaction that I enjoy. How seemingly meaningless everyday items laying around can be given new purpose and a new form. Perhaps it’s also the way it lets me use my fingers: to twist, to pinch, to pull. When I’m creating something, the rest of the world fades away, even the music I was listening to, and all that’s left is an artist and her imagination. A reprieve from a noisy mind.
Two years ago, at the end of a 5-year struggle to finish high school, I found myself with a lot of time and inspiration. The Japanese culture has always intrigued me- its subtleties and folklore and the way they live. I was especially enamoured with their kimono, and soon my attention turned to Geisha and Maiko and the pretty flower ornaments they wear in their hair, called kanzashi.
I got my hands on some beautiful Japanese fabric and that’s when the magic started. For weeks on end, I sat at the living room table, piecing together small fabric petals and bending wire to my will. When one method failed me, I tried another. Different fabrics. Different glue. Different colours. All while staying true to the end result that I had pictured in my mind.
Crafting is still a source of pleasure for me, a relaxing activity that allows me to escape my noisy mind. Although now, I’ve grown and my crafts have too. Now, instead of keeping them to myself, I make them with the purpose of helping others. For the first time ever, I’m joining a charity effort organised by The Kalsom Movement called Talent For Charity !
I’ve thought this over many times- reasoning with myself that the stuff I make are pretty amazing no matter what anyone says, telling myself to get over the fear of putting myself out there again. Stepping to the front lets the whole world see you, makes you feel vulnerable to the scrutiny and opinions of other people. It’s scary, but it’s also high time I start learning that I’ve got to start if I want to get anywhere. And it doesn’t matter where my starting point is: small or big, what matters is how I persevere on.
So if you’re in London tomorrow (3rd December 2016), please do drop by the Malaysian Hall at Queensborough Terrace (Queensway or Bayswater station) and support us! I’ll be there with other volunteers with stalls and workshops that showcase our talents, all to help tackle education inequality in Malaysia! See you there~
A full list of items on sale could be found here ! 🙂
All of them are always available, and I also ship overseas (shipping charges apply)
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Daily Prompt: Flames
A funny little thing happened to me yesterday.
I was out with a friend on a Friday night. It’s slowly becoming a thing that we always do once the weekend starts: find a place to go to enjoy the sights of this enormous city that is London. The view is drastically different than what we see during the day.
At night, the lights turn on and as we stood on the viewing balcony at Tate Modern, the vastness of this city hits us. Was Kuala Lumpur ever like this? Here, there were lights as far as I could see, and above us the sky looked like time stood still at a never-ending dusk. I remembered thinking to myself- “How pretty.”
Every person crossing the Millennium Bridge in the distance, has their own troubles and joys. Each monument, like St. Paul’s Cathedral across the river, has its own tale to tell. I wondered how different this city would have looked like a hundred years ago, a thousand years ago. Were the worries of the people of those times different, or the same? Wouldn’t a mother still worry for the safety of her child, a beggar still worry about tomorrow, a merchant still count their riches, regardless of which age they were born in?
That train of thought was quickly discarded in favour of amusing my friend as we looked at the galleries within Tate Modern’s halls. We were two girls looking for a night thrill. For some time, we pretended to be art critics, discussing the emotions that each painting brought out in us, awed at the more interactive exhibits and laughed when the figures truly didn’t make sense to us. A more artistic soul would probably appreciate Tate Modern’s art, perhaps. I wished I did. But maybe art ages like fine wine, too. And that’s why people flock to see the paintings that held little value to me.
We continued our trip across the Thames.
It was cold, and we held hands. My fingers intertwined with hers.
“Pink Panther!” a woman called out.
I looked back, but didn’t stop walking. True, I was wearing a bright pink fluffy hat/scarf/hand warmers that I had picked up a few years ago from Disney SEA and thought it would be a great idea to wear it that night. The woman was old, bent, and she seemed to have trouble walking but that was none of my business.
As cold as it sounds, I have learned not to be too sympathetic to random strangers in London. It has only ever brought me trouble.
We turned away and continued our walk.
“Or are you a gay panther?” she continued, followed by a mean cackle.
Her words baffled me. I blinked at my friend and she blinked back. How in the world did this woman come to that conclusion? We were two Malaysian girls, simply holding hands as we walked across the street. Hardly anything could be assumed from that besides that we are obviously friends.
Except that we were in London.
The thought had slipped my mind. That affection, in the western world, is quickly assumed to be of the romantic sort. Something done by a couple. And oftentimes, not welcome when it is done by two people of the same gender. It made me ponder on how starved for affection their youth must be, if every touch is frowned upon, every hug is assumed to have a hidden meaning. It puzzles me further, because as far as I am aware, western culture also involves men and women kissing goodbye. If a kiss can be seen as platonic, then why not holding hands?
I’ve been to many countries and it seems like I bump into mean, old ladies everywhere. Russia, Japan, Malaysia, you name it.
Middle aged people with a skewed view of the world.
How funny it is, that it is the youth who are more tolerant and more accepting of different cultures and different perspectives. But the people who raised them have such small hearts, and fan the flames of hate.
When our milkshakes and chicken wings arrived at our table in a cozy restaurant called Tinseltown, I had put the baffling event firmly behind me. So what if I meet a mean lady or two, I’ve given up holding a grudge against people I can’t change and things that can’t be moved. The Earth will keep moving, and the Sun will rise, the day will pass and one day, she will, too. And then, that’s one less hateful person in the world.
Daily Prompt: Irksome A month has passed ever since I moved to London. A new city. A new chapter in life. I knew I’d get here one day. It was something that I promised myself all those years ago after dad was done with his Masters … Continue reading Once new, now just another day