Month: February 2017

Am I Enough.

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i.

The night before 2017
I sat with myself
As I
always have,
and I listened to the whispers of the world.

‘You are tall’ said the sky.
‘And you are strong’ said the Earth.

I nodded;
As I stood in Eiffel’s shadow,
my legs shivering in the cold.

‘You are significant’ said the mountains.
‘You are embraced’ said the seas.

I nodded;
As water slips through my cupped hands,
my lungs on fire.

‘I am enough’ I said

But I am not.
I am not.


ii.

There is nothing to see
There is nothing to fight
But it is there


iii.

It comes in gasps
Quick.
Sharp.
Like you’re
drowning-
on land.

It comes as thunder
In your chest
Telling you to
Run
Run
but where
how-
do I run from death?

It comes invisible
Invincible.

How do I fight an enemy I do not know?


iv.

They say sleep is a form of death
A sweet, short version
of what we must all
someday
face

I know what you are

fiend

You are-
Insecurity. Fear. Longing. Envy.
Sadness. Pain. Contempt.
Anger. Confusion.

You are-

Loneliness.
Disguised as a thousand shades of emotions.

The calls that never come
The hollow cheerfulness
The absence that is not felt
That one small person in the vastness of a sleepless city

I know what you are

So I’ll keep you in a box.

Shh
Be quiet

I am tired of screaming without words
my demons
are beyond comprehension
anyway.

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